Overthinking

Headache, sadness...
What's happened to me? I am so sad right know. It's like I can't explain what happens with me, with my feelings. I don't know what I am. I need to find myself, to understand me. I don't wanna live anymore, but I need to, I just don't know why. But I need, just need. I can't kill myself, I'm too afraid of the death to do that. The cold is taking me again... I'm trying to run, but he's to fast.
He catch me again. I think he's my new best friend, I don't love it, but, he's with me everywhere. Why everything is so gray? I can't see the colors, I can't feel the sun and the wind groing through my skin. I cant see the happiness in these peoples. I need to move out of this shitty city! All we need is a colored life, a beatiful life! But these thing are not for people like me.



''Soy un perdedor.
I'm a loser, baby. So why don't you kill me?''